simple shui | why shui matters to me

about a month ago, the threads started fraying.

first, it was #rubyrubyruby busting out of her crate at the groomer. a small crime, i admit. but, there was the issue of a broken crate…

next, it was a couple unexpected bills. and not the kind from hasty oversights, either. more like the uncomfortable-I said–he said–clearly we’ve miscommunicated-kind.

there was the secret of NIMH congregation in our grill. a core memory no one wants, believe me.

oh, and the ant problem.

the email hacker.

my brand new glorious site launching with hiccups. one time, two times. . .

and that little out-of-the-blue surgery i had.

all in the last 30 days.

i could blame the retrograde.

or holler about how it’s more than i can handle.

i could kick shui in the shins and storm off.

but here’s the thing:

i won’t give up.

and that is a big deal.

we like to think everyone else has “it” – a generous income, glowing skin, an easy marriage, the recipe for doing it all well, the perfect life. and so, we climb into bed with our stories. the painful truth is we let those comparisons and excuses get comfortable with us. we become so afraid of what we don’t know + end up holding tightly to this stifling belief life is working against us.

it’s easy to stay stuck. especially when we get knocked over by any resistance.

but when we get frustrated + stay there, progress slows down. BIG time.

it helps to have something that pulls us forward.

for me, it’s shui.

shui doesn’t guarantee me anything. and when things fall apart, as they do, i’m confused. frustrated. i’ll spiral. and watch too much TV.

but i won’t give up.

i know my shui practice makes all the difference.

because it’s a lifestyle.

even when i feel beyond help.

especially then.

shui softens the edges. and mitigates the turbulence. it gives me touchstones to come back to when i don’t know what to do next.

and that is what keeps me moving. thankfully.

so.

even if i have 99 problems, shui won’t be one.

xo