back to better.

i finally see the corner. you know, where you turn and life suddenly feels familiar again?

the last few weeks have not been easy.

normally, this is something i would keep to myself.

but.

today it feels necessary to tell you that even though i believe in. . .

holding your head high,

choosing happy thoughts,

and filling your heart with gratitude,

i hit lousy lulls along my merry way.

this last one was a  d o o z y.

i always have the same thought mid-crash: this might be worth it if i come out the other end with some good advice on how to handle the rugged terrain of indifference and discontent. you know, that place where delight in the belly and a twinkle in your eye can disappear?

hope eventually crashes, though, and coming out whole becomes the only task to tend in the world.

i have felt ridiculously peevish possibly all of october, not wanting to acknowledge anything good around me.

except.

i know this is when i must use gratitude as a flashlight to navigate the dark stretch ahead.

so, regardless of my daily sulking, i would seek out a handful of things that make my life better.

did it make me feel better right away? no.

did it feel pretentious? yes.

but to get better, i have to be better.

and gratitude, always within reach, is the easiest way back to better. for me, anyway.

i woke this morning finally feeling a little lighter and more inspired.

i am not even sure if this post has a point.. .

other than, greet every day — whether you are on the mountaintop or in the gutter — with gratitude.

it might make all the difference.

xo