impossible.

the agony is too big for words.

so i look for some. usually from books. that speak to the quicksand of sadness.

when i heard of the community fractured today by a loss that blurs everything, i remembered a sentence from extremely loud & incredibly close.

does it break my heart,

of course,

every moment of every day,

into more pieces than my heart was made of.

i imagine this is the grief they will carry. forever.

which makes it an impossible task to know how to show reverence and consolation for something i couldn't bear.

devastation reminds me it is necessary to tell our loved ones how we feel. always.

and to not turn our backs on the present. ever.

be well. be safe. be love.

xoxox